Self doubt has been something I’ve struggled with all my life, from internal self debating whether I could get graduated from University to believing whether I could ever succeed as a Case Worker or a Psychotherapist. I feel that no matter how accomplished I am in my life. I always felt like I have not achieved anything. I am tired of having this BIG, TALL & FREAKY wall in front of me. This wall is stopping me to achieve greatness and also stopping me to seek great LOVE.
Apparently, self-doubt can stem from childhood experiences, for example being subject to criticism or mixed messages from love ones, such as your parents or siblings. I had to go back in time and think about the circumstances which lead me to feel insecure. I had a wonderful upbringing by my folks but there were circumstances my role models were giving me mixed messages. This is scary because I feel that I am scarred for life.
The truth is : I CAN'T CHANGE MY PAST. AMEN
Now that I know, what I know. What am I going to do about it "meaning my self-doubt issues" make the differences. I am 24 years old and I am responsible for my own life. I can't blame others for my insecurities, fears and self-doubt. I think by blogging about how I am feeling about things and by talking to my buddies as made me realize how special I am as a daughter, sister, friend, Case Worker and most importantly as a human being. During the lecture, my professor was asking my classmates and I to describe ourselves by using a metaphor. My Metaphor will be a Orchid. Orchids and I share similar characteristic. We are both unique, delicate, exotic and graceful and we both represents love, inner beauty and strength.
