A New Dawn Indeed!

I had an interesting lecture on Psychodynamic Psychotherapy yesterday. The lecturer was so inspiring and tactful that I used the theory to self reflect on my own life.

Self doubt has been something I’ve struggled with all my life, from internal self debating whether I could get graduated from University to believing whether I could ever succeed as a Case Worker or a Psychotherapist. I feel that no matter how accomplished I am in my life. I always felt like I have not achieved anything. I am tired of having this BIG, TALL & FREAKY wall in front of me. This wall is stopping me to achieve greatness and also stopping me to seek great LOVE.

Apparently, self-doubt can stem from childhood experiences, for example being subject to criticism or mixed messages from love ones, such as your parents or siblings. I had to go back in time and think about the circumstances which lead me to feel insecure. I had a wonderful upbringing by my folks but there were circumstances my role models were giving me mixed messages. This is scary because I feel that I am scarred for life.


The truth is : I CAN'T CHANGE MY PAST. AMEN

Now that I know, what I know. What am I going to do about it "meaning my self-doubt issues" make the differences. I am 24 years old and I am responsible for my own life. I can't blame others for my insecurities, fears and self-doubt. I think by blogging about how I am feeling about things and by talking to my buddies as made me realize how special I am as a daughter, sister, friend, Case Worker and most importantly as a human being. During the lecture, my professor was asking my classmates and I to describe ourselves by using a metaphor. My Metaphor will be a Orchid. Orchids and I share similar characteristic. We are both unique, delicate, exotic and graceful and we both represents love, inner beauty and strength.

AMEN!

Don't let the IDOITS grind you down...

Here's to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The trouble-makers. The round heads in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They're not fond of rules, and they have no respect for the status-quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify, or vilify them. But the only thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.

Think!

Monkey see....Monkey acts!!

Nothing is so infectious as example. - Francois de La Rochefoucauld

Who is your role model? Mahatma Gandhi? Mother Teresa? Oprah Winfrey? Gloria Steinem? Who are your child's role models? You? Yes. A recent online survey revealed that nearly half of the young women respondents looked to their mothers as their role model. In another survey, 46 percent of teens said their role model is a family member, not a pop icon or sports star. Whether you know it or not, or whether you like it or not, you are a role model.

Modelling is something I find myself doing more and more in my work with children and adults. I personally think that children need role models to become emotionally mature and culturally enriched human beings. Having a strong role model gives a child a sense of security and comfort that her life has purpose, which keeps children away from risky behaviour when they grow up to be a teen. Having a good role models significantly influence children's futures, and they keep them on the path to success. I think in Singapore we lack of good role models, I am seeing a growing number of adults not being responsible for their actions and this is sad. I think it is time for the adults to wake up. So, take it to heart. Your values, opinions, and example carry more weight with children than you might have thought.

Rage!

I feel Rage.
This feeling is so intense that i am losing control of my actions.
I don't know what triggers this
Even small things may set up this emotion
I have many regrets
I don't like having regrets
I've lost my capacity for rational thought and reasoning
Time to let go, time to move on
An eye for an eye makes the world blind Suganthi
Let go of rage...it's consuming you
It's ugly
This is not you
Whatever it is they are still your family and friends
Let go and get help
Always remember that you are the master of your life
You create the rules
You decide what's good for you

Vintage Karma!

I just recently found my baby photos. Oh! I miss that mushroom haircut!

 I love this Pic!!

 Grandma & I

Don't judge me!!!!!

 Grandfather!!!!!! I miss u!!!!

 Prabu & I

NICE!

Cardiac Arrest!

"The HEART has reasons that reason does not UNDERSTAND" ~ Jacques Benigne Bossuel

Dear Heart,

How are you? You seem to be getting stronger and younger these days....Probably because of all the yoga, muscle building, cardio exercise and mindful meditation ...your fabulous owner have been doing...hehehe...Amen...Anyway i just want to say that i am proud of you ...I know that yesterday was a stressful day for you...you quarreled with Brain...mixed emotions about things that is going around you...such as he should not be named  and certain irritating swines..But i know that you are strong... and you are capable of great things....so dun take it too personal Heart....Just let it go....Time to move on....

Check this out!!!

Thought Power - Your Thoughts Create Your Reality

I L.O.V.E. THIS!

Becoming a Woman of Purpose: Chasing MAGIC!

 

“At times our own light goes out and is rekindled by a spark from another person. Each of us has cause to think with deep gratitude of those who have lighted the flame within us.” ~ Albert Schweitzer

I really do indeed have an awesome life. How could i ever doubt it? For years there have been a little voice inside of me telling me that i am not good enough and my life sucks etc. I don't know whether because it's the new year or something. My view of my life have change...I feel like a new person...New goals (have tons!!!)...and I don't give a shit about others think of me..I am who I am so FUCK you!!!and bye bye inner voice! I just want to be happy and I AM going to live my life the way i want...do things which i love and Stay Fabulous!

I have found that the best way to create the life of your desires is to begin with your “I AM.” Who do you want to be in 2012? Your “I AM-ness” is extremely powerful because what you add to I AM gets added to you.

So Just for today, STOP, TAKE A BREATH, and THINK ABOUT IT!

Must I say more !!!

MR RIGHT?!?!?!

Elizabeth Gilbert, author of Eat, Pray, Love, says: "People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life."

And as we say, perfect is boring anyway.

Nice!